1 year since our miscarriage

 

Today is a year since our scan
Since we found you had passed
The positive test
The smile on my husband’s face
I will never forget
Standing in the mirror sideways as you grew
Reading each week the size you would be
The plans we both made for you, for us
The names we spoke about
The life we planned ahead
All our hopes and dreams
The excitement in the hospital waiting room
As close as we could be to you
Then it all came crashing down
We sat in a cold room alone and cried
Waiting to be told what we already knew
We cancelled our holiday
We drove to the seaside
We existed and we cried together

I can’t believe it’s been a year
I think of you daily and the life we could have had

I am sorry, I will never forget you.

 

The song in my head today is Feeder’s Tumble and Fall